9-11-02

 

Moving closer,

the first is barely visible now

against the farthest corner

of memory, a slight tremor.

Straining to hear, we peer at the horizon,

scanning for shapes,

unfolding the whir, the stir in the air.

Noiseless, painless, light as whispers,

they come back to this place

from which they were splintered,

on this, the anniversary

of their unholy transition

into a holy place.

 

We stand silent

on the ground, peering down

to see some shred of hope

or substance in the scraped-hard earth.

Squinting to see any semblance

of what was here, still finding it

hard

and scorched and sharp and

unyielding

to have another November 22…

an assassination of the spirit,

a death of dreams.

 

From the flattened ashen soil,

look to the endless gray of the skies.

From a place we have dreamed,

beyond and far away into imagination,

come softly down shades of pink

and peach and pearl.

And there is a music

beyond, behind, above,

through us,

a chorus, an orchestra

finding lost anthems,

with resounding cathedrals of bass

and tiniest wisps of treble,

at once large and small music

that finds what each of us lost

and puts it back,

even if just for a moment,

just like it was.

 

And, listening,

we unfold our hands like petals reaching to the sun

and our hearing to the magic

like a warm handshake

or a familiar hug.

We are not here alone.

Any more.

They have come.

They will come again.

It is one year.

It is thousands of lifetimes.

Wherever we are

this year

next year

all years

we open the shutters

of our morning

and fling open its doors

to the essence of those lost,

to the continuing of them

in us, in

all of us,

all children in some degree

of that day that changed the face

of liberty

forever

by adding the trace of a salt-streaked tear

at the curve of the cheek,

just below the sad gray eyes.

 

The torch remains.

Its light comforts

the harbor.

A place of shelter,

the refuge remains.

We owe the light

to those who yet have to know its promise,

to those who still disdain the joy of freedom,

to those who cannot see beyond their moment’s survival

into a tomorrow of any kind.

All bearers of the light,

we take turns, standing watch,

peering into the night, waiting for the lost,

who have, over time, become us,

and our children.

A million anniversaries

bring the day to us, burned into our souls like x-rays.

We move forward

haltingly

before our eyes have remembered sight

and before our ears have found the music,

before our footing is sure

and before our pain is gone.

 

There is a power in the air around us

that makes fire look cold.

It is the chapel for them.

For us,

an involuntary clutching of a grief

so fierce

we yet have no words

for its intensity.

A harboring of purpose,

a future with

a memory.

Amen.

 

this poem was written on 29 August 2002

by susan godman rager

in honor and in memory of those lost 11 september 2001

c2001-2002 SG Rager  sgrager@ragerlaw.com

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The music you hear is J. McGarrick's file of "Song for Athene" by Tavener, from the Silvis' Woodshed.

 

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